I had a fantastic day on course — finished the lecture “Studying: Introduction” (it was a hard tough slug as I had to look up lots of words) and then EASILY passed the electropsychometer check for misunderstood words at the end.
I realized I had resisted studying “The Basics” as I thought I *already knew* the basics of Scientology — “knew it all already” you see — but I realized this attitude was blocking my study. I’m now WILLING TO LEARN EVERYTHING I CAN from LRH. The gate to my Bridge just opened and the light is shining through.
I attended Ingrid Gudenas‘s “Transforming Your Presentation Skills” workshop yesterday at the Church of Scientology of Los Gatos. I flew up to San Jose from Burbank for it and IT WAS WORTH IT! If you have a chance to hear Ingrid, do whatever it takes — she is extraordinary!! The workshop is based on materials from L. Ron Hubbard and Ingrid has them down to a “t”.
The workshop was a real eye-opener. It’s like I’ve been walking all my life and Ingrid told me I could fly if I tried — and I did and I could!!
I feel more alive. I feel eager to talk to people and experience them and to allow them to experience ME. I can’t wait for the rest of my day (writing this at 6 AM), to engage with others and practice LIVE communication.
I am tremendously excited about my next public speaking engagement — I can’t wait to practice what I’ve learned!!
I got my email inbox at work to zero by confronting and handling every single task, easy or hard, one after another. You have to understand, I haven’t seen the bottom of my inbox in decades. I’m definitely operating at a high new level since getting 60 hours of Dianetics counseling.
I also find it’s easier to stay calm under pressure.
I am doing the Purification Program and I had this insight:
Beings are different (separate) from their emotional/spiritual baggage. Even though that baggage can influence them, the beings are still basically good, with their own love and bright energy. They are just trapped (stuck) in some issues, unknowingly.
I don’t feel mad any more at people who’ve hurt me. Now I love them and want to help them free themselves of their baggage and become happier.
My affinity for others is high beyond words, my heart is overflowing with love.
I did not expect this win on my Purification Program!!! I expected to feel cleaner or have more energy. Something individual, personal. Instead I have this re-connection to mankind. Wow!
I feel I’m growing as a being.
At a recent conference lunch, there was a person at my table denigrating Scientology. To put some truth about Scientology out there, I mentioned that the first lesson in Scientology is don’t believe anything unless it’s true for you. My lunchmate scoffed and said that wasn’t science.
Well, it is now!
Accepting something as knowledge is an entirely voluntary choice that every one of us makes at our discretion. No one can force us to believe or accept what is represented.
Here is the first lesson:
What is true for you is what you have observed yourself. And when you lose that, you have lost everything.
What is personal integrity? Personal integrity is knowing what you know. What you know is what you know and to have the courage to know and say what you have observed. And that is integrity and there is no other integrity.
1. Mark Burgess (2012). What’s Wrong with Knowledge Management? And the Emergence of Ontology, New Research on Knowledge Management Models and Methods, Prof. Huei Tse Hou (Ed.), ISBN: 978-953-51-0190-1, InTech, DOI: 10.5772/34651.
Our neighbor just gave birth by Caeserean section. I gave her a touch assist. At the end, she looked serenely at me and said: “I feel good. I feel SAFE!”.
It’s so good to be able to help.
I’m pleased to report that after taking 3 weeks off work (which gave me a 23 day window including weekends) and doing religious services intensively I completed Objective Processing and the Drug Rundown. I feel very different. I have more energy and it is easier to concentrate harder and longer. My mind wanders a lot less and I am getting more done. This is exactly the sort of wins I was hoping to get out of Scientology.
Most importantly, I now have far greater personal certainty that Scientology auditing works and should be continued. Highly recommended!
A had an unexpected win last week related to taking the resistance off something. There is a datum in Scientology that if you resist something and fight against it, you’ll end up with that item.
“The whole philosophy of the [physical] universe is what you don’t want, we’re going to give you and what we give you, you don’t want.” L. Ron Hubbard, Admiration & the Renaissance of Beingness lectures.
For example, a kid who is afraid of the school bully, will end up with the bully in the kid’s face. Or if one is afraid of catching a cold, afraid of catching a cold, afraid of catching a cold… Achoo!!
Application: I had an aversion to alcohol. Growing up in Russia, I had seen men lying on the street, their faces, dignity and lives ruined by addiction to alcohol. I had seen close relatives lose intelligence and self-control in enjoyment of vodka. At about six or seven, I said, “I don’t want to get addicted. I am not going to drink.”
Fast forward to present time. I was still abstaining from alcohol. I had a conflict with my wife, who enjoys a glass of wine at home or some shots of tequila with friends. By the time we reached three bottles at our home (and you have to understand I’ve had zero bottles in my home for years) I started wriggling from discomfort.
I told her, I don’t want alcohol in my house because I am afraid I will drink and get addicted. I could actually feel the pull of the bottle when life was tough. “Drink me, you’ll feel better”. “Just take the edge off.” She on the other hand, came from a house where you had wine at dinner. She felt I was pushing my ideas on her in trying to keep the house alcohol-free.
A couple of nights ago I decided to apply this datum about resistance, and just stopped resisting alcohol. I had a shot and a half of tequila. It didn’t kill me and I didn’t get addicted and the pull is gone. I know I am free to choose. I know I am not an alcoholic. I no longer push against it and feel it pressing back against me.
I completed the PTS/SP course today.
I had really nice wins from my study of “Problems of Work” and “Fundamentals of Thought” books. I find I am more able to assume and hold a beingness – for example, being a sys admin while I am at work, or being the Daddy for my daughter, or being a Husband for my wife, or being a Friend to my friends. I don’t mix beingnesses, and I stay focused on what I am being while I am being it. As a result, my doingness and production in all these areas has shot up. I am more certain in myself and I am enjoying life more.
It’s a big deal that I finished the PTS/SP course. I’ve been on this course for a while and it’s good to put it behind me. I learned a lot about PTS (Potential Trouble Source) and SP (Suppresive Person) relationships, and the spiritual reasons for sicknesses and accidents, and for losing spiritual gains; and how to stay well and keep expanding without losing gains. To learn more, see Overcoming Ups and Downs in Life.
I had the pleasure of helping my two and a half year old daughter go to sleep tonight with a Nerve Assist.
She was restless and couldn’t find the right position for her body and most of all, she was hiccuping. She was not getting to sleep.
I asked, “Would you like a Nerve Assist?”
She said, “Yeah.”
After a couple of minutes I noticed the hiccups were gone and she was looking very relaxed. She went to sleep very quickly after we ended the assist.